“I find that if I look too far into how facile my existence is, I find myself staring into the abyss and realize that every aspect of my existence is an irrelevance.”
Gwarizm sounding well goth… but still, that doesn’t mean I don’t agree entirely.
Thing is I don’t crave relevance; I suppose I’d like to take the leave only footprints philosophy to the Nth degree.
My life has been shaped by the fact that I have no idea what it is that I really want and that I have a natural aversion to wanting what I am expected to desire.
Contrariness is the purest thing to me.
Given the current zeitgeist of self improvement and optimising one’s profile (whether in real life or online) the idea that you aim not to matter seems absurd, which consequently is exactly why I like it.
I will always be stumbling through one rabbit hole into the next.